2012

Honestly, I was terrified when I first heard about the prophecies that surround the year 2012. Prophecies of death and destruction, from very notable sources apparently, The Mayan’s and Nostradamus. Its going to be the end of the world they say… but you know after further research, I honestly don’t believe it will be the “end of the world.” You see the Mayan’s were exceptionally, ridiculously even, advanced when it came to astrology. They created calendars which still are 100x’s more advanced and accurate than even the calendar we use today. But just because their calendar ends in 2012 it doesn’t mean that the worlds going to end. First of all there is evidence that shows that they were attempting to continue their calendar but that, oh I don’t know, the complete obliteration of their civilization may have stopped that process. Also, the Mayan’s were a people who believed that life was full of cycles; everything eventually repeats its cycle. For example the cycle of any successful civilization is that it the civilization will first establish its self as such. It will thrive and prosper and then eventually it will fall for one reason or another, usually their downfall is due to their misuse of their resources, over population, corruption in their politics, and/or problems from expanding their reach further than they could actually control. Either way this is the way they saw things, and 2012 was just the end of another cycle, yes maybe hurricane or a massive earthquake is in order but for the most part I don’t know about all that hubbub balloo about the end of the world. I think personally if anything it’ll probably just be the end of America’s position as a world power, not that we haven’t been out of the running for that title for a while now but I truly think, if anything will happen, that’s what we might face. I mean if you really were to hear the Catunes (every repeated period of 20years which they made predictions for) , and the predictions made by Nostradamus they honestly sound much like a what we know today as a horoscope. Exceptionally vague and easily applied to a large array of events that take place in each segment of 20yrs, and that’s what I’ve found in both the predictions made by Notradamus and the Mayans. So do your own research, as for me I’m most worried about the economy getting worse and that (even though I have total faith that Obama is going to give his all to our country) its scary to think that 2012 is only in three years, just enough time for the effects of the things we’re doing today and our new presidential administration, to really begin to show. But we Shall see… any thoughts?!

photography (yeah still getting use to it)

this is their drummer practicing before their gig...













Me, Susy and Erica ...


You know for not knowing my way around my camera quite yet I think i did well. It was dark, my subject was moving ALOT!! So here are the shots, I don’t know how to edit quite yet so I really haven’t done anything to these images. They are literally straight from my camera, so don’t be to harsh. Oh and by the by the band is local for the Fresno, Ca. area and they are called "Subdue."


okay well those are for the most part my favorites, let me know what you think!! theres gotta be some photographers out there that have something to say, and dont worry about being to critical, just as long as its not nasty. And let me remind you, I’m still feeling my way around my camera and these were just the most difficult circumstances, movement and no light.. well dim lighting.. xoxo

The Fear…

The New Year is here and all those old hopes and dreams have, as per usual, begun to bubble to the surface. Every year like clock work, everyone gets this surge of energy, this “I can if I try this year,” attitude which sends them down the path of good intentions but inevitably, for the majority of us at least, we slowly begin to deflate in our enthusiasm, we fizzle out and then we’re done. This year hasn’t really shown any signs of being any different than the last 22 years of my life, especially when compared to the last 10 years where I was actually old enough to be aware of the magic that is a “New Year Resolution.” But, in stead of concentrating on my future goals this year I reviewed my past mistakes, mishaps anything that put me in the position to really feel like I needed a “change.” I’m a girl that’s use to change, no stranger to keeping just enough in my room that I could pack it all up and leave at a moments notice. That was me at least; I was also a good amount more confident and quite a bit surer of where I was going… But now, I’ve realized I was never really sure of where I was going, I just knew where I didn’t want to be and I’ve managed to stay clear of that place (which, if you haven’t picked up on this yet, this place that I don’t want to be isn’t an actual location, it’s more of a state of being). In this retrospection I’ve identified my biggest fear, which I’ve always had but had not yet realized was effecting my every decision. The fear of failure, I know, I know “but everyone is afraid of failure, Amy!” Well I gotta be honest I’m pretty sure this goes a little deeper than the quintessential “Oh what if I’m not voted best looking, or what if I lose my bundle in my investment.” Its like a black fog that’s exploded around me, ever since I witnessed my own mothers decent in to this haze I’ve constantly been playing it safe, even in my most intrepid moves I find myself holding on to the ledge, to afraid to jump in. Even when I’m over working myself, I find theirs a method to my strategically putting just enough on my plate, I do just enough in each of my classes, internships, work, art, that I always have the excuse that I’m spread to thin. Nothing is my best work because I never give all of myself to anything. Does this make sense; it made sense this morning. I’ve made a new resolution, its much like the Nike slogan, nope wait it is the Nike slogan, “Just Do It!” I suppose we’ll see how fare this new years resolution goes for me in 2009. If all else fails the worlds suppose to be ending in 2012 anyways so, who gives a shit right..?!